The big day tomorrow...

Tomorrow we will be meeting Carson!!!!!!!!!! That is SO strange to say! I woke Eric up at 5:30 this morning to tell him that this time tomorrow we will be at the hospital. I pretty much played that game all morning.
Yesterday went by slow just like today, yesterday I got my toes done, because you just can't have a scheduled c-section done without a pedicure! That would be crazy, so rockstar toes it was! Eric mowed our lawn so it doesn't look like our house has gone into foreclosure when we get home. We bought a video camera and we are figuring out how to use it. Plus we had a last splurge and bought a tv for our bedroom, a flat screen to hang on the wall, ya that was our last selfish thing before we have a baby. Plus how nice will that be while I recover from a c-section and stare at our baby. Today is going by slow also needless to say, I am finishing up our laundry, last minute cleaning, and laying around feeling Carson move for the last times. He is moving a lot today. So fun! I am nervous of course today, surgery is never fun, but I am SO excited to hold our baby!!!

Notice that Carson is the size of a mini watermelon, ya - a c-section is not looking so bad now! haha.

Oh I think Eric just got home, I am making him take me to Wendy's to get one of those new coffee frosty's, mmmmm...that sounds good my last day of eating whatever I want before losing weight is the goal instead of gaining it. haha. Time to go get my "last ice cream" before Carson comes. I am having a baby tomorrow!!!!

I will post pictures as soon as I am home and able to. : )

The last belly shot...

One week from today I will say goodbye to the belly and we will say hello to Carson!

Notice how we have out his little swing and carseat. That is where Daisy's bed use to be and we thought we better move it ahead of time and get her use to Carson's baby stuff because Daisy gets really weird about change. Sure enough her hair on her back stood up when I turned the swing on. I turn it on a few times during the day and she is getting use to it now.

"last times"...

Ya, Carson can come anytime now!!!! I hurt. And it is like waiting for Christmas day when your a kid, but the anticipation and excitement is even worse than that! Oh and a little bit of nervousness and anxiety too, but more excitement! This week has been funny, I wake up every day and make sure my toes and nails are filed and painted, my eyebrows are tweezed, my legs are shaved, my hair is washed and looks decent, you know just in case today is the day. I am fully aware it would most likely be the day I look like crap. Plus I will care less because I will be so nervous and excited when the time comes, I won't care what I look like! I also do things now and say "well that is the last time I will do that without a baby". Like my life is over, haha. I got my hair done yesterday for "the last time", I washed my bed today for what could be the "last time". Eric did yard work for the "last time". I just say it cuz it's kinda funny to think of doing things for the "last time" before our lives change drastically. It is kinda the little joke around here. Like tonights hamburger at my parents will probably be my "last hamburger". Unfortunately for Eric I think having a homemade dinner was a "last time" a long time ago! I am a dork, I know!

I was a little nervous that my water would break in an embarrassing place or something, but now I want to put myself in the most embarrassing situation because that would likely be the place it would happen and since I hurt pretty bad now I think the embarrassment would be well worth getting this show on the road! So maybe I will sit in the middle of the santuary, in the middle of the pew at church, that would be pretty embarrassing, it may just do the trick!

So we continue to just wait and wait and wait, every day feels like an eternity now! Just days away from meeting Carson!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank goodness for expiration dates...

I am getting pretty uncomfortable now, I feel so sore when walking around. There is pressure now that just plain makes me hurt. I am still able to sleep at night though, in between all the millions of bathroom visits which are a given at this point. It just takes a while for me to get out of bed each time now that I am hurting. I have to get up slowly and then there are the moans and groans while I try to get my stiff, sore body out of our bed. I tell Eric I promise they are not for sympathy, the moans and groans are a necessity in order to hoist myself out of bed! Even during the day when I am sitting for very long, the getting up and moving is painful all over again. As long as I am up and moving it is better. Eric and I went to the hardware store last night and I was in pain and told him I would wait near the front of the store because I just couldn't walk around, I was so sore. I am glad I am a little uncomfortable at this point though because it makes the c-section less scary because I am so ready to not be pregnant anymore. Thank goodness he has an expiration date of June 1st because I couldn't imagine going past my due date now with the soreness I am having. It has been a really easy pregnancy for me and so a little discomfort will keep my mind hopefully off the c-section and more towards just having this baby out. I am super excited for Carson's birthday, but a little nervous for how I will feel after. I don't want pain or anything interfering with enjoying my baby. This is definetely the most excited I have ever been for a surgery though, I mean at least I will have my baby to look at and admire while I recover. It is just too bad that when Eric takes his time off after the baby he doesn't really get time off, he has to take care of me and baby!!! He can never escape his job!!!! haha. Luckily he will be able to do a lot for the baby during his time off and he will enjoy doing it before he has to go back to work. He will have good bonding time. If I didn't have to recover from surgery I might just take over and do everything, but now I will have to take it easy and Eric will get to do a lot and I am glad!!! As much as I will want to do everything it will be nice for Eric to experience all those things like changing diapers, bathing, and dressing him. Not that I won't be able to do anything, he will just be able to do more. He will definetely be a hands on kind of dad and want to do everything. He won't want to just watch me do it all. He loves every age and stage, even the itty bitty baby stage. I know some guys don't like babies as much as when they are older, but Eric likes it all. So I am excited for him to be able to bond with our baby that I have carried for 9 months.

One more thing-I am ready to be more mobile now and not be pregnant. I want to be able to keep up with Eric when we are walking. haha. When I go shopping with my mom, she is always way ahead of me, I just can't move that fast anymore. Oh and I will go ahead and add that I am SO totally ready for the numbers on the scale to go down and not up anymore!!! : ) Oh well Carson is worth every pound!

Most of all we just want to know he is healthy and see what our baby looks like!!! His mommy and daddy are so ready! We want to see his face and what color hair he has! We want to hold him and kiss him so bad!!! So that makes weight gain, pain, soreness, surgery and recovery so worth it! Man I have a lot I can use against Carson when he gets older. haha.

The end is near!

This kid will be here June 1st if my water doesn't break before then that is. I never wanted a c-section, but I have been trying to think of the positives....

*At least no laboring for hours just to end up with one.

*I will be able to have a shower and get ready that morning.

*If my water breaks at least on my way there I already know what is in store, no surprise c-section later.

*My doctor will be the one who delivers him since he is going on vacation the day before my due date. I really wanted him to be the one to deliver Carson.

*If he waits until June 1st Eric won't have had to work a 16 hour day only to come home and wake up 2 hours later with me in labor.

*Eric will be able to take his final early and be done.

*No going over my due date, especially in this heat that is getting worse!!!

*No laboring for hours on end, I mean I will go in and we will meet our son soon!

*Eric will take good care of me and Carson afterwards if I am in pain and can't do things. I love that he is in the medical field! And he worked for a while in the NICU and is use to babies. So I don't have to worry there.

*No cone-head baby, he shouldn't be all squished up.

*I have to say with him being butt down I have had no heartburn or difficulty breathing.

*There are really cute hospital gowns that I could order if I choose instead of wearing the ugly ones they give you.... www.babybeminematernity.com. I havn't decided if that is a stuck up thing to do or not. I mean I don't want to seem totally self absorbed, I am totally there to meet my baby!! Don't know if I will. I just thought they were cute.


So there are the good things about having a breech baby and knowing your about to have a c-section.
Eeeks! That is exactly 3 weeks from today!!!! He is still breech and the way he is there is a good chance my water could break before and I would have to have an emergency c-section. I would rather make it to June 1st (not only because I think it is a pretty cool birthday) but Eric would have his school stuff done. Oh well, we will welcome him anytime!!! It is afterall ALL about Carson now!!!!

Baby Carson's celebration!!!

I honestly didn't think I would ever see this day, the day it would be my turn to have a baby shower for our baby!!! I was humbled and overwhelmed to say the least. I appreciate everything so much more after waiting for this baby!!! Eric and I are so grateful for everything!!!! Here are a few pictures of Carson's celebration!

My cousin Christie on the left took pictures along with her mom Carole. They were very busy!!!

This is the clothesline that Jamie put up to display all his cute clothes and blankets-good idea huh?!
My cousin's cute little boy Nathan.

Joey, Jamie, me and Lorie they helped with my shower, what nice friends!

The centerpieces, so cute and cheerful looking!

My sister in law Sarah made this ADORABLE diaper cake! I did not want to take it apart after!

The cupcakes were made by Lorie, they looked SO cute with the little animals on them!

I am probably boring these poor people while I tried to open the packages as quickly as I could!

Jamie hanging all the cute things up for all to see!

Getting ready to pray so we could eat all the yummy salads people brought! It was REALLY good food!

Lets eat!!!

My sister Beth, me and sister in law Molly holding the cookies they made for favors. There was a barn cookie and animal cookie in each bag and they were made with my grandmas famous recipe, they were so cute and delicious! They take forever to make too, so that was quite a job!

The grandmas and Carson's great grandmas (on my side). They all are eagerly waiting for Carson!!!

The little girls, Brooke, Joey and Kaylee were such a help with bringing me packages and opening them since bending and stretching was a little difficult! Plus there was lots to open so I needed their little hands to help!

The soon to be grandmas!!!! And they both live just around the corner from us so we are in luck when it comes to help!

Jamie, me and Lorie. These posed pictures were at the end when most people had left, I was so tired, I have the "I am so pregnant and utterly exhausted" look going on.

Brooke and Joey were excited for me to open up their gift! I was too!

The canopy Eric's parents got was so nice since it ended up being pretty warm that day. It was very comfortable.

Thank goodness for those little hands helping me!

An adorable blanket made by a talented friend, Lorie C. How come some people get all the craftiness and I get zero! I am glad she did though, that is one cute blanket!!!

I was able to put the finishing touches in Carson's room afterwards. I just LOVE his bookshelf full of adorable baby things. My sister got him the blocks with his name, so cute! And Jamie got him the cowboy boots, too fun!

I love to look at his crib! The little lamb is from Carson's great-grandma Carol, a.k.a. GiGi. The lamb makes either a heartbeat, rain, ocean or whale sounds and there is a timer so it can turn off. I thought that was such a great thing! I think Carson will love it too!

It is so fun to see his room filled with the little things like diapers and wipes and powder. Not much longer now! I am just waiting for pictures of Carson so I can fill the window with pictures.

Busy few days...

This last Saturday I had my baby shower which was really nice. It was at Eric's parents house in their backyard, it was SO pretty! It was thrown by family and friends. Lots of people came to shower Carson with love and gifts! It was really nice! I will post pictures once I get them.

After the shower Jamie and I went to exchange a couple of things and use gift cards to get the rest of the things Carson would need. Thank you Jamie for helping since I was SO stinking tired, I could NOT have done that without her help! Then the next day I spent washing things and finding a place for everything. Then on Monday I had to finish putting things away and my mom came over and helped me clean the house since today the carpets are being cleaned, well right now actually, which is why I am on here wasting time while they clean my nasty carpet. Now my house feels clean finally and Carson's room is done, which is SO nice!!!! Good thing, I could use the break to just chill until he comes. I have been working on Carson's room and cleaning so much I literally felt sick from exhaustion. I just don't realize how being pregnant drains you until it's too late and I am laying on the sofa with an ice pack on my head in tears because my body hurts so bad. I think I may stick to reading, a little shopping, and relaxing from now till the end! I feel really good as long as I don't overdo it, I think I am having a hard time learning that lesson though. : )

I had a doctors appointment today and found out I am still the exact same. Carson is still breech, no fun! And still slightly effaced. If he stays as he is I will have a c-section my 39th week, if he does not try to come earlier. My doctor will be out of town starting the day before my due date for 2 weeks-I really hope he can deliver Carson so I hope it all works out. In a perfect world Carson would flip around and come on his own a week or two early so my doctor can still deliver him. But that would be a perfect world right? I am suppose to lay down 4 times a day for 20 minutes with my hips elevated with pillows to try to get him to switch around. So you bet I will be doing that! When he was doing the ultrasound he said Carson was opening his mouth and had his arms up, I don't know why be didn't have the monitor next to me on so I could see, but at least he gave me a picture. You can tell he is much bigger. I can't wait to see him!!!!